Category: Weekly Videos Recap

It shouldn’t have been hard to guess from the clues last week but here’s a preview video reveal of what was my first Halloween costume of this year!!

I’ll be wearing that one more time and piecing together my other costume for the year now so stay tuned for that…

Instead of just Captain Hook though I actually ended up being Captain Xanax that night, after a full meltdown while dressed like Captain Hook, mustache and all…

I had to literally be drugged with anti-anxiety medication just to go to the Halloween party. It ended up being amazing overall, more below, but my whole aura was angry, loaded with anxiety and fear and SO much shame for how I act and can’t control it.

I am so happy to be so unhappy as crazy as that sounds I’m just trying to be OK with not being OK sometimes.

As soon as we got back I scheduled an appointment with my doctor and we talked for a long time about my recent struggles and symptoms. He thinks the therapy and PTSD diagnosis is part of it but the more in my face medical issue making it all worse is a raging case of PMDD.

PMDD is basically PMS on steroids and then my case of PMDD is basically average PMDD on steroids!!

So one of the most common prescriptions for that is Prozac which I’ll be trying for now on the lowest dose to see if that can calm the beast long enough for me to continue healing through therapy and exercise and healthier food.

It takes a few weeks for it to really fully get in my system so I’m not quite sure yet how to feel about it or what side effects I might get.

Ok now back to the fun after I told the nitty gritty crazy city details of my mental health and meds.

I ended up being able to pull my head out of my angry ass and make it to the Halloween party and it was all AMAZING!!

The Hocus Pocus show, the parade and fireworks!! The show was everything I remember and more!! I was able to get some candy but with my allergies I can only eat some of the “normal” candy and had to head straight to the allergy center to load up!!

We got home at 2am… two o’clock in the morning… I normally am in bed around 10pm and up at 6ish. BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!!!!!!

Thennnnn… I got to go back to the dentist to have my FOUR cavities filled that I had been dreading ever since finding out about them a couple weeks ago.

It went as well as it could with someone who has severe anxiety about going to the dentist, but each cavity was in a different part of my mouth so it took SO many shots and I was SO sore for days after but better now.

The new webcam system is up and running and working perfectly too!! 🙂 I think this will be the first week that we try the password system with it now that all the kinks are worked out so we’ll see how that goes!! 🙂

You’ll still meet me at the same link that you’re used to for my weekly live shows.

So if you’re already Bronze or higher or ANY type of current paying member of my site before the change in a few days, then I’ll make sure you still have access to my live weekly shows for as long as you stay a member 🙂

So many exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon including this:

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Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
  (Gold Members get the free personalized video message right after joining.)

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

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So I attempted Halloween Horror Nights (bad idea but it didn’t go TOO terribly since I was only there for less than an hour), the real scary part was my mom came for a WHOLE week!! 🙂

I made it through all that with only ONE Xanax though (team no panic attacks) and now trying a 5 day Disney relaxation vacation BUT now kind of freaking out with how the weather is going to treat us and our very expensive Mickey Not So Scary Halloween Party so we’ll see how that goes…

This party has been sold out for a while now and they don’t do any rain checks either. So we are going to TRY to take our asses to Neverland dressed as some awesome Neverland characters and I will be a dude!! 🙂

Not just any dude but I will have a mustache and a hook for a hand… how’s that for a clue??

Well just in case you can’t actually figure that out I will send out a pic of me and B dressed up (he will be wearing a crop top and a red hat) in next week’s blog post if we are able to pull it off!!

The new webcam system is up and running and working perfectly too!! 🙂

You’ll still meet me at the same link that you’re used to for my weekly live shows.

So if you’re already Bronze or higher or ANY type of current paying member of my site before the change in a few days, then I’ll make sure you still have access to my live weekly shows for as long as you stay a member 🙂

So many exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon including this:

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Some new Silver Membership spots are now open!!

Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
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Top 5 Vids Of The Month

The Top 5 is always fun to see which ones “win” and what seems to be trending at different times 🙂

Here’s the most recent September 2022’s Top 5…

If you’re already one of my amazing supportive members and you’re logged in, you can click on each one to go right to watch the full version instantly:

September 2022

1. WEBCAM: Live Footjob Cum Play Wet Hair Blow Dry Brushing Lotioning

In this live webcam show, I just washed my hair right before the show so I start with a towel still on my head while I lotion up my naked body then let my wet hair down then blow drying and brushing it, then a behind the scenes view of the very popular recent footjob and big cumshot with cum play then clean up and more chatting about my birthday and our anniversary and lots more!! 🙂

2. WEBCAM: Big Announcement Vibrator Warmup HUGE Doggystyle Orgasms

In this live webcam show, I start the show with an exciting announcement then some chatting about that before I whip out my vibrator for some masturbation warmup and then B cums in and pounds me doggystyle as I cum over and over again SO hard that I’m exhausted after he cums all over my ass and chat with you all while laying down trying not to drift off for the rest of the show!! 🙂

3. POV Creampie CFNM Cheating CEI After Blowjob And Cameltoe Sliding

In this custom video, sneaking away from the party since you noticed I wasn’t wearing any panties, talking dirty to you then wrapping my red lips around your cock knowing your wife is right outside, POV blowjob while you see my upskirt pussy in the mirror then I climb my wet cunt on top of you and do some cameltoe sliding teasing before sliding you inside me and riding front and reverse cowgirl until you fill me with a nice big creampie then watch it cum dripping back out while I talk even filthier about how much sluttier I am than your wife and that you love it and want to lick my creamy cummy pussy after too!! 🙂

4. Female POV Premature 1 Minute Cumshot Doggystyle Creampie After

In this custom video, my female POV as he slides his bare cock in my wet pussy…squishy gushy sounds of my creamy cunt…watching his 1st cumshot after only 1 minute…”you need to go back in there”…sensitive post-cum fucking with cum all over my belly…dirty talking while I cum hard during missionary pounding…quick cum wipe and out of my belly button before flipping over doggystyle…view from under my pussy taking doggystyle pounding too…watching his balls slap against my pussy…finishing with a multiple orgasms POV doggystyle creampie and lots more!! 🙂

5. WEBCAM: Feet And Dancing Customs Then Masturbating Doggystyle Sex

In this live webcam show, I record 2 mini customs, one focused on my feet and one with me dancing, then it’s masturbation time and doggystyle sex time that gets interrupted but picked back up where we left off just in time for more amazing orgasms and a big cumshot all over my ass and back before signing off!! 🙂

And that’s just from September 2022, there’s a Top 5 like that going back over 10 YEARS to July 2012, as in two thousand and TWELVE before color television and sliced bread lol 🙂

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Don’t forget…

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One… two… the hurricane’s coming for you…

We survived Hurricane Ian but only after evacuating not once but twice, and I did it all without any more panic attacks so I’ll take it!!

When Ian was originally heading straight up to the Tallahassee area, we figured we would drive all the way across Florida to the east coast of Jacksonville, should be plenty safe there right??

NOPE!! Within 24 hours of us getting there, getting the RV all set up and unpacked, the whole county we were in went into a mandatory evacuation!!

So then it was pack everything back up and get back in the truck to drive ALL the way back across Florida actually right TO Tallahassee this time the exact place we were avoiding in the beginning!! LOL had to laugh to keep from crying 🙂

Therapy has been going well, 2 to 3 times per week, I would love to go Monday through Friday if it wasn’t so expensive.

I’m still in that raw stage where every day in between sessions can be a little scary but I’m definitely feeling like it’s helping.

And just in case bringing up one of my many childhood traumas of being hit hard by Hurricane Hugo wasn’t enough, one of my other “favorite” memories was being held down at the dentist because they didn’t believe me that I could still feel the pain of what they were doing, so guess what I had this week right after the hurricane??

Yep, a dentist appointment!! 🙁

First one since COVID so that was already a lot of anxiety and then worse when they told me I have 4 cavities since I went through detached/depressive episodes and stretches where I wasn’t brushing my teeth or showering.

So now I have that to look forward to in a couple weeks but this dentist was amazing, the best I’ve ever been to and I feel like I’m in really good hands.

I’m still struggling with my weight and comfort food but I’ve at least started moving a lot more again and getting a lot more physical activity and sexual activity too!! 🙂

Oh and the new webcam system this past week went SO great, a few hiccups at first but I think we have most of those sorted out so I’m excited to try that again this weekend!! 🙂

You’ll still meet me at the same link that you’re used to for my weekly live shows.

So if you’re already Bronze or higher or ANY type of current paying member of my site before the change in a few days, then I’ll make sure you still have access to my live weekly shows for as long as you stay a member 🙂

So many exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon including this:

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Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
  (Gold Members get the free personalized video message right after joining.)

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This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget my next live weekly members’ show is Sunday afternoon, October 9, 2022 at 1pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

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I have been having a hard time the last month or two (who hasn’t right??)

And it all came to a head… HARD!!

Right on what was supposed to be the 1st day of trying out my new webcam setup, I completely canceled the show. No warning. No real explanation (until now).

I haven’t recorded hardly any new content. Stretches of not eating at all. It’s been a mess. I’ve been a mess.

Everything was new and so raw with therapy opening up a lot of old wounds and traumas…

And I just found out I have a NEW tumor from my gyno but apparently this one isn’t supposed to be serious, called a fibroid, but I still have to have it rechecked in a couple months to be sure…

And I was suffering my longest PMDD (PMS on steroids!!) yet THEN a HUUUUGE hurricane decided I needed one MORE thing to push me over the edge.

It did. It did. Full on panic attack. I couldn’t breathe, my body was fully seized up, I couldn’t do anything but be in the fetal position, just broken.

My body still hurts from it now days later. I needed something to help, I was ready to reach for anything, even have had thoughts of drinking for the first time since getting sober over a decade ago.

I was grasping for straws, looking up medical marijuana, reaching out to all my therapists (yes, I actually have MULTIPLE therapists right now) AND my medical doctor but it was Sunday!! 🙁

My doctor is amazing though and called back personally and knew I needed help and couldn’t handle everything that’s going on.

He said with my past addictions he wouldn’t be comfortable with prescribing me something if it wasn’t for me also going through therapy at the same time.

So he prescribed low dose Xanax for those moments when all my other new coping skills I’m learning aren’t enough. Luckily, that was never one of my main go-to’s before my sober days anyway.

I already wasn’t doing great but the full fear I have of storms (I was super young when Hugo hit HARD in Myrtle Beach) and a big fucking monster new hurricane coming right at us… with us IN AN RV (first major storm since we went full time).

It was too much and my body and mind broke. I try so hard to always be ok and I absolutely wasn’t.

I pushed myself so long and for so hard that as soon as I started to open up it all became too much. I will never allow myself to put that much stress on my body again.

I am not 100% better yet obviously but I am not in the same state I was during the panic attack.

I’m still doing therapy multiple days a week to help move forward. Xanax will only be a small part of my healing in emergency situations and working on finding my triggers and ways to help keep my mind and body more relaxed and less anxious.

So laying it all out like this makes me feel vulnerable but I have always tried to be more open and honest than most.

I don’t want to hide or hold back if my story can help even just 1 person decide to get help and realize they’re not alone.

I’ve already heard from so many over the years that say my sobriety has been their inspiration to get sober too, and I’d love to be that same positive influence on more people being ok seeking therapy and counseling too.

Going through this for so long has been hard but I am ready to continue this journey, darkest before the dawn, to find my fucking ray of sunshine!!

So now with all that out of the way the show must go on!! I’m doing a test tomorrow, Thursday September 29 at 1pm Eastern US time just to actually try out the new system and see how it works.

You’ll still meet me at the same link that you’re used to for my weekly live shows.

So if you’re already Bronze or higher or ANY type of current paying member of my site before the change in a few days, then I’ll make sure you still have access to my live weekly shows for as long as you stay a member 🙂

So many exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon including this:

Silver Membership Spots Open NOW

Some new Silver Membership spots are now open!!

Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
  (Gold Members get the free personalized video message right after joining.)

You can see the full details and comparisons on joining right here:

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I’ve put out a brand new full video every single day for YEARS and YEARS with THOUSANDS built up in my members’ area now!! 🙂

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget my next live weekly members’ show is a quick test TOMORROW Thursday afternoon, September 29, 2022 at 1pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

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Some VERY exciting news if you didn’t hear on my last webcam show…

As in that was my last live webcam show…

ever…

…

on the VNA!! 🙂

Nothing against the VNA of course, I still love Vicky and the whole VNA family and fans.

I’ve just had a bunch of stuff in the works behind the scenes for a while now and finally ready to test the first piece!! 🙂

THIS Sunday at my same 1pm Eastern US time, you’ll still meet me at the same link that you’re used to for my weekly live shows.

But it will be a whole new system and if it works (fingers and dicks crossed!!) then I’ll be able to mix in some live impromptu chats throughout the week in addition to my usual weekly shows!! 🙂

There’s definitely going to be some testing and I’m sure some issues to work out like with all changes, so please CUM to the live show this week so we can see what happens!! 🙂

Also going to be some major advantages to those of you that are already paying members because this is just the first of many exciting updates…

Technically Bronze members aren’t supposed to have access to the live weekly shows BUT since all this took longer to get sorted out than I thought, you’ve still been able to watch them in the meantime.

So if you’re already Bronze or higher or ANY type of current paying member of my site before the change in a few days, then I’ll make sure you still have access to my live weekly shows for as long as you stay a member 🙂

If you wait until after we get this all up and running and the next exciting pieces, then all new members after that will have to be Silver to have the live shows included 🙂

So many exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon including this:

Silver Membership Spots Open NOW

Some new Silver Membership spots are now open!!

Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
  (Gold Members get the free personalized video message right after joining.)

You can see the full details and comparisons on joining right here:

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Now even MORE to add to my realest deepest darkest bio ever, at least for now right in the middle of this next big adventure!! 🙂

I’ve put out a brand new full video every single day for YEARS and YEARS with THOUSANDS built up in my members’ area now!! 🙂

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Did you know I post a brand new video EVERY SINGLE DAY on my site in my members’ only section?? 🙂 Cum join me inside to see what else you’re missing out on… 😉

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget my next live weekly members’ show is on Sunday afternoon, September 25, 2022 at 1pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

Did you know I post a brand new video EVERY SINGLE DAY on my site in my members’ only section?? 🙂 Cum join me inside to see what else you’re missing out on… 😉

Up and down in and out!!

That could be a fun phrase but that has been my extra crazy emotions the last week.

Following up after last week I had narrowed it down to 4 therapists and this past week found someone I really liked.

She was super official phd doctor smart, I pour my heart out to her and she was able to diagnose me but NOT be my ongoing therapist 🙁

Like “yep you officially have PTSD, good luck with that!!” lol

I was just mentally drained and excited to at least have some type of validation but also like WTF do I do now??

How could I have PTSD if I haven’t been to war?? How could it be??

I’ve looked more into it and it’s starting to make sense. Most my life I’ve been hypersensitive and she said I’ve suffered from it for most my life starting from an early age.

Lots of trauma and lots of things where I had to act against my nature. One traumatic experience after another just snowballing on top of each other for many years.

So now I’m back to picking and interviewing and down to two left, I’ve already had one great session with one and my first one with the other one next week.

Ugh. It’s been an emotional road already and looks like it’s just getting started.

I’m so glad my dad and mom are coming to visit soon, not like they had ANYthing to do with my early trauma and never any drama when they come… lol

If only Aunt Flo could come at the same time then we could really get this party started!! 🙂

I do have actual exciting new things happening behind the scenes cumming very soon for you too though including this:

Silver Membership Spots Open NOW

Some new Silver Membership spots are now open!!

Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
  (Gold members get a free YEAR subscription from day 1 and upgraded “Love’R” priority status in my 1on1 personal Direct Messages there.)
• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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Thank you for the excitement and questions about my upcumming updated bio!! 🙂

It will be done and released THIS month and I will announce right here as soon as it’s officially available!! 🙂

I’m excited about it too and yes it will still be digital, this awesome pic just makes it look all 3D and hard cover fancy lol

And WOW at the therapy I talked about last week!!

I’m just getting started and already unlocking and unloading SO much that I have no idea where this is going to go but I’m ready to find out.

This was way overdue, and I’m so glad I’m finally starting, no matter how scared and nervous I am!!

I’ll share more as I can but right now it’s all still very new and raw, and I haven’t even officially picked yet.

Just like when I was picking my colorectal surgeon, I always like to have lots of options and different points of view.

I’ve narrowed it down to 4 therapists but have only had one official session other than consultations so far.

I broke down crying full on blubber lip quivering in the first one which I never really do so like I said I’m just trying to buckle up and see where this deep diving journey takes me!!

I hope that by sharing my struggles and breakthroughs along the way, it can help show that you’re not alone, that we all feel broken and that it’s ok to NOT be ok sometimes.

We’re all in this together, through the good the bad and the sexy 😉

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• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
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Top 5 Vids Of The Month

The Top 5 is always fun to see which ones “win” and what seems to be trending at different times 🙂

Here’s the most recent August 2022’s Top 5…

If you’re already one of my amazing supportive members and you’re logged in, you can click on each one to go right to watch the full version instantly:

August 2022

1. WEBCAM: New Light Behind Scenes Of 3 Vids Lingerie Vibrator Orgasm

In this live webcam show, one of my amazing birthday gifts this year was a new studio light that’s bigger and brighter so I break that out and set it up and try it out as you watch from behind the scenes while I record 3 mini customs including foot fetish fun and lingerie asshole and pussy spreading before a great vibrator masturbation orgasm and lots of chatting with you before during and after!! 🙂

2. POV Blowjob Upskirt CFNM Doggystyle Creampie Dripping Down Legs

In this custom video, we have people coming over soon so quick fuck me before they get here right here in the open, I get down and suck your hard cock loud and sloppy then put my knees up on the edge of the couch, you can see my dirty house feet soles and my wet pussy waiting for you just under my skirt with no panties on, come right behind me and slide the hard dick in my cunt and fuck me hard doggystyle as I cum over and over again begging for more until you fill me up with a huge creampie cum load talking filthy dirty to you along the way and you watch the huge cumshot leaking out of me and dripping all the way down my legs just in time for CUMpany!! 🙂

3. VLOG: Full Behind The Scenes Of Birthday Content Day And Previews

In this weekly vlog of my real life, this is the full behind the scenes fun of the day I did all my birthday content videos and photoshoots, talking about how and why I went from my best shape to my worst shape, full makeup and curly hair done, trying to squeeze into my LeeLoo cosplay costume, covering myself in icing and licking it off while whipping my big tits out, why my cake was so dangerous, smashing my cake after eating WAY too much of it, freaking the fuck out after someone just WALKED IN without knocking or ringing the doorbell, preview of the full dildo fucking video I made right after AND the bathtub hairwashing video too, those are both cumming soon and lots more!! 🙂

4. Teasing JOI CEI After Denial To HUGE Cumshot Mutual Masturbation

In this custom video, I’ve denied you for so long your balls are SO full and sore, and I tease you just a little bit more in my tiny panties that I peel off and build and edge myself with my vibrator while talking dirty to you keeping you right on the edge and the only way I’ll let you cum is if you eat it and lick it all up for me, I see that you can’t even last so I pause my own masturbation to catch your HUGE cumshot in my hands then you have to suck it down and then watch me finish my own masturbation to a nice big orgasm and now you can get out until I allow you to cum again, IF I allow you to cum again… 🙂

5. Free Use POV Doggystyle Fucking While Im On My Phone Cum On Ass

In this custom video, you’ve been SO horny lately I can’t even keep up so I’ll just keep playing on my phone and bend over and present my pussy for your free use to keep draining those overactive balls of yours, I can’t help but keep from cumming too though you and that good dick of yours, I try to keep getting some more work done on my phone but you just keep pounding the orgasms out of me doggystyle until you finally cum all over my ass and leave me to get back to what I was doing before I was so sexually interrupted!! 🙂

And that’s just from August 2022, there’s a Top 5 like that going back over 10 YEARS to July 2012, as in two thousand and TWELVE before color television and sliced bread lol 🙂

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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I’m almost done updating my bio and it’s been fun but also super deep and heavy going back down memory lane of where I started and ALL the craziness, good and bad that’s happened over the last 10+ years!!

I had already started life coaching recently which opened up even more flood gates and now I’m interviewing different therapists to find the right fit to dive even deeper down my rabbit holes 🙂

If you ever feel lost or alone PLEASE reach out to a professional in your area. I’ve always said it but now I’m actually living through it and it’s even more amazing (and terrifying) than I thought it would be to start to work on those parts of ourselves that we always try to ignore or bury down deep inside.

Sometimes I feel like I’m never enough and will never be enough, no matter how much I give and share, there’s always people that want more and try to push boundaries harder and harder.

The few bad apples take a toll over the years, one day and one abusive message at a time.

I have enough inner criticism and abuse in my own head, I don’t need extra outside help thank you 🙂

That’s why I’m starting to rebrand the site and open up the higher tiers so that I can reconnect with the people that I truly want to be in my inner circle.

I know a lot of guys just want to come and watch my porn and that’s fine for them, but I’m here for the people that helped get me here, that see me as more than just a walking sex doll and connect with me as a human being that just happens to be sexual, not the other way around.

I have made a lot of progress and growth over the last year but now it’s time to take it to the next level and not do it by myself in my own mind but to have a professional help me unpack all this baggage too.

I already feel like I need to add another whole chapter to the bio with all this, but I’ll wait until early next year when I’ve had a few months to work through and process some of whatever I’m about to unlock through this therapeutic journey!! 🙂

I hope that by sharing my struggles and breakthroughs along the way, it can help show that you’re not alone, that we all feel broken and that it’s ok to NOT be ok sometimes.

We’re all in this together, through the good the bad and the sexy 😉

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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So I am stillll eating on my perfect best bday cake ever!!

There is NO way to finish this amazing 16-person beast all by myself but it has been so good and I am so thankful and STILL love it so much each time I see it.

My dad is here visiting to help finish out my BDAY MONTH celebration. We’ve gone to Universal Studios almost every day, done all the Harry Potter magic spells in both parks with my new all powerful wand that works every time now!!

As my bday month starts coming to a close I can start getting my health and weight in check.

I am fat, sick and nearlyDead (not really but a great documentary and I have aliments and health issues coming up that haven’t in years since the last time I was this big and unhealthy)

There is a great ready-made nutrition weekly meal plan I am going to get back on and just eat the premade meals to slowly start getting back on track and back on the wagon.

I have at least started walking again so I am not a complete lump on a log!!

Slow baby steps to get back to where I need to be to get my thyroid back under control so my body will stop attacking itself…

Thanks so much for all the birthday love!! Only a few days left to send love and gifts to help me end with a bang!!

My live webcam show is an hour later this week on Sunday at 1pm Eastern US Time. I’ve started doing more errands earlier in the day then have to rush to make it to the show, so going to see how this works instead

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• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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After years of birthday cake disappointments in a row, I FINALLY got my perfect birthday cake that gave me all the feels and tears of joy that I’ve been hoping for all this time!! 🙂

Look at this beauty!! 🙂

I’m SO happy and SO thankful that after a rough start this is turning out to be my best birthMONTH ever!! 🙂

Thank you thank you thank you to the amazing members that helped me get this cake and make this a reality because it was not easy or cheap!!

Weeks of back and forths then a long drive yesterday and a hotel stay last night to be able to pick it up and drive it back home this morning!!

All of the high quality pics and full recap of the adventure before during and after will be going out to the campaign donors that made it all possible!! 🙂

One more full birthday adventure week coming this week too!! 🙂

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Here’s the benefits of upgrading to Silver:

• Silver Bonus: Download My Videos
  Bronze members only have streaming ability, but active recurring Silver members can download up to 3 videos per day in your 1st month and unlimited downloads after your first rebill.
  (Gold members have unlimited downloads from day 1 with no restrictions.)
• Silver Bonus: LIVE Webcam Shows
  Bronze members can only watch replays of my live OF webcam shows, but Silver members get LIVE access to ALL my cam shows, no per minute fees, totally free and included with your membership.
• Silver Bonus: Free Access to My OnlyFans
  Bronze members can buy access to my OnlyFans separately, but Silver members get a free one month subscription to my OnlyFans and a free YEAR subscription after your first rebill.
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• Silver Bonus: Custom Content Discount
  Silver members get 25% off EVERYthing on the store page including custom videos, 1on1 webcam chats, and more.
  (Gold Members get 50% off)
• Silver Bonus: Personalized Video Message
  Silver members get a free personalized video message after your first rebill, 30 to 60 seconds of me saying hi to you in whatever way you like best
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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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