Wow, really, already??

Can you believe HALF of 2020 is over already??

Definitely the craziest year I’ve ever experienced and I’ve lived through a lot of crazy but most of that was self inflicted!! šŸ™‚

It’s crazy to think about how close I might have been to not even making it to this second half!! šŸ™

I hope you are as safe and healthy and optimistic as you can be during all the chaos and I hope even more that we all come out of this stronger and better and together and that the second half of 2020 is one of healing and rebuilding

I feel like I’ve grown more in the last few months than I have in most of my life combined but not without setbacks and stumbles along the way.

Thank you for continuing to follow me on this wild journey and supporting me and my site and I’m glad I can help give you back some fun distractions and pleasures to escape to every once in a while too

We’re all in this together!!

Weekly Pics Poll

Here’s where I post my favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Here’s this week’s pics then the quick poll below:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is tonight, Wednesday, July 1, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

I’m Going Back to the Scene of the Crime for the 1st Time!!

First off, don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is NOT tonight, but this Saturday June 27, 2020 at 4pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

I’m Going Back to the Scene of the Crime for the 1st Time!!

Of course the crime I’m talking about was the one against myself and my body and ended with me laying on concrete but VERY lucky that they didn’t have to trace around me in chalk that night!! šŸ™‚

I survived to learn my lesson and today is my do over day where I’m going to be doing it right and never going THAT overboard again!! šŸ™‚

Wish me luck that I’m sleeping INSIDE the RV tonight for a change and not on the wet cold ground outside šŸ™‚

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Weekly Pics Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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25 Pics of what almost killed me!! :(

This is probably the most pics ever in one blog post!! šŸ™‚

It’s easy to laugh about now but this was REALLY scary and I’m just so glad that I survived!!

It could have been really bad and I was SO close to going to the hospital…

I probably would have if I wasn’t so scared of going anywhere near there with all the coronavirus craziness!!

LONG story short was I always joke about food comas and eating too much…

I saved up SO much to earn an epic cheat junk food day at Disney Springs but…

I went WAY overboard and actually almost put myself into a REAL food coma!! šŸ™

To hear the FULL story and parts that I don’t even remember because I was in and out of consciousness you can hear it all in the free podcast episode here:

223: The Night I Almost Died From An Actual Food Coma

Then all the pics of the carnage are below!!

The first one shows how I got in great shape saving up for it right before and the after pic only about 12 hours later after ALL 455 grams aka one POUND of sugar and over 5 THOUSAND calories!!…

And that was just a couple hours before I was sprawled out on the bathroom floor, punching B in the face, then laying on wet concrete with bugs…

It’s crazy to even think about now but I learned my lesson and know I can never go THAT crazy again!!

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Weekly Pics Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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TODAY IS THE DAY, finally 1st time since November 2019!! :)

First off, don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is NOT tonight, but this Saturday June 13, 2020 at 4pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

TODAY IS THE DAY, finally 1st time since November 2019!! šŸ™‚

I’ve been waiting and saving up for this day for over SIX months and it’s finally here!! šŸ™‚

By the time you read this, I should be smiling ear to ear and already elbows deep in a big pile of sweets and treats from Erin McKenna’s bakery!! šŸ™‚

Once I come out of my food coma I’ll try to remember to share the major food porn of what all I had!! šŸ™‚

Plus it’s finally the first little bit of Disney magic after so long too!! šŸ™‚

Disney Springs is just their outdoor mall area so not an actual Disney park yet but I’ll take any Disney I can get right now!! šŸ™‚

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Weekly Pics Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Here’s this week’s 3 pics then the quick poll below:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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Don’t forget…

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Confession: i AM the Spaghetti Monster!! :)

Today was grocery day and it went great!! šŸ™‚ Still nervous each time but gets better each time too.

Grocery shopping used to be one of my favorite things to do and slowly getting back there šŸ™‚

My junk food meal this week was spaghetti. I hadn’t had it in SO long and it was SOOOO good!! šŸ™‚

I didn’t go TOO overboard with it either because still even MORE excited about Disney Springs and my favorite bakery there next week!!

I’m going to go VERY overboard there!! šŸ™‚

I didn’t even get the ice cream I was planning on getting today and got fruit instead šŸ™‚

I’ll make up for it with double or TRIPLE ice cream next week!! šŸ™‚

CUM along for the fun of our first adventure week in a LONG time by joining me right here… šŸ™‚

Weekly Pics Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Here’s this week’s 3 pics then the quick poll below:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is tonight, Wednesday, June 3, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

Where my 1st post-quarantine adventure will be to… :)

Wow last week’s picture poll was VERY popular!! šŸ™‚

Let’s keep it going this week!! šŸ™‚

But first I can’t believe I’ve been on almost complete lockdown since mid MARCH!!

2 and a half months!! 75 Days!! 6 MILLION 4 hundred and eighty thousand seconds!! lol šŸ™‚

Going a little stir crazy?? YES!! šŸ™‚

Before that I was so used to going and doing something almost EVERY day…

It’s been a BIG change but I’ve grown SO much during all this mentally and emotionally

That doesn’t mean I’m not REALLY ready to get back out there and having fun again though!! šŸ™‚

Going to be slowly venturing out of our quarantine cave next week…

First to the zoo since it’s outdoors and not as popular or international as Disney…

They are doing lots of good things to be extra safe so that will be a great first adventure!! šŸ™‚

What was YOUR first “non essential” trip during all this or where are you planning for it to be?? šŸ™‚

Weekly Pics Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Here’s this week’s 3 pics then the quick poll below:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is tonight, Wednesday, May 27, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

There’s still time to join me now for YOUR first live show and always more cumming right behind it… šŸ˜‰

My NAS Experiment and Which of these 3 pics is YOUR favorite?? :)

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Let’s kick it off with these 3 then the quick poll down below šŸ™‚

But first a quick update on the past week, still hanging in there with all the lockdown and hope you are too!! šŸ™‚

Still SO wanting to get out and start doing fun things again but so thankful for having the farm to get out and still get stuff done and have something to focus on šŸ™‚

My garden has been doing great so far and I’m SO proud of it since I didn’t know if ANY of it was going to actually grow šŸ™‚

My no added sugar aka NAS experiment went amazing too!! Had my best period EVER, shortest and lightest and just felt so much better overall, less brain fog and less mood swings and more energy!! šŸ™‚

That doesn’t mean I can go ALL NAS though, going to be breaking it up with my junk food cheats every two weeks which is actually today and it was another epic one!! šŸ™‚

But even with an epic cheat day I was actually able to control myself and throw away part of almost everything I got instead of just trying to cram it ALL in like I would before!! šŸ™‚

I’ve never gone 2 weeks in my LIFE or even close to that so I feel like I finally actually earned it for once and will be able to get right back on track after I ate my fill and then some of it all today!! šŸ™‚

Don’t forget the new blog feature that I’ll keep up if it gets a lot of votes and interest right below in the next section… šŸ™‚

Weekly Pic Poll

Trying out a new part of the blog posts, where I post my 3 favorite pics of the week and you vote on YOUR favorite!! šŸ™‚

Sound fun?? Let’s kick it off with these 3 then the quick poll below:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is tonight, Wednesday, May 20, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

There’s still time to join me now for YOUR first live show and always more cumming right behind it… šŸ˜‰

No show tonight, 2 reasons why…

Just a quick note this week to remind you there’s NO webcam show tonight since I already moved it up and did it this past Saturday for TWO reasons (all FULL webcam show replays right here), neither one very good or fun!! šŸ™ lol

First I was pretty sure I was going to start my period this week and I always try to work better shows around that so I hope you enjoyed the Saturday Sybian/Tremor show as much as I did!! šŸ™‚ And then Aunt Flo came to town right on time which is good for timing but never happy to see her, well other than knowing she’s not bringing storks and baskets anytime soon!! lol šŸ™‚

Second reason is we are dropping our RV off tomorrow for repairs which means we have to get up and going super early and I’m SUPER anxious because it’s our first real “errand” other than groceries since all this lockdown and quarantine started so hoping it goes fast and smooth and that they don’t break or infect our precious RV baby while it’s there šŸ™‚

I’ll be OCD cleaning and disinfecting it whenever we get it back which hopefully won’t be too long!! šŸ™‚ And can’t believe we STILL haven’t done a video in it so we’ll have to work that in after too!! šŸ˜‰

Join me inside for all the fun in the meantime, my VLOGs have been more action-packed and popular than ever not to mention all the other MANY member benefits that you can read about now right here:

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Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is NOT tonight since I already did it this past Saturday so my next live show will be next week, Wednesday, May 20, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)

I ate 4 THOUSAND 4 hundred 36 calories today, here’s what that looks like…

If you didn’t already listen to my recent free podcast about the “217: Full True Story Of My Recent Addiction Binge” one of the MANY reasons for that was being locked away from Disney for so long, I haven’t had my Disney junk food release in a LONG time!! šŸ™

So until things start getting back to “normal” and we are able to get out and about and do fun trips like that again and have all the fun junk food that comes with it, I’m going to do planned junk food days at home instead to try to keep the comfort food monster away in between!! šŸ™‚

Today was the first day and it went great other than my food coma right now šŸ™‚ These are the types of days like after Disney that make me crave the opposite of junk food, good clean healthy meals but they are oh so good at the time!! šŸ™‚

At least with Disney though I’m walking MILES and MILES to get some of it off, definitely need to work on that with the home ones šŸ™‚

Here’s the breakdown of what I had today, couldn’t even FAT it all on one screen or fit in all on one screen?? šŸ™‚

So if I’m snoring on the live webcam show tonight you know why either that or bouncing off the walls like a sugar crazed maniac!! šŸ™‚

And speaking of the live show tonight, I’m also doing TWO live members only webcam shows this week!! šŸ™‚ One tonight and then ANOTHER one this Saturday May 9th at 4pm Eastern US time!! šŸ™‚

I haven’t done an early weekend show in a while since all the lockdown and quarantine but I know they help some people that can’t make my usual Wednesday night shows so hope to see you there tonight or Saturday or both!! šŸ™‚

Cum join me inside right now for all the fun and bonuses and behind the scenes XXXtras!! šŸ˜‰

Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

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Don’t forget…

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Have YOU ever felt this and needed a mental health day??

The chaos continues!! lol Have to laugh at it to keep from crying right?? šŸ™‚

I continue to have the same ups and downs that I hear from you too, and I had a rough couple days then I feel bad for having a rough couple days when I know SO many people have it worse so then I feel guilt and shame and blame myself all over again into a downward spiral…

BUT I finally took a mental health day or at least a mental health half-day and just shut everything off and crocheted my heart out!! šŸ™‚

I already feel so much better and I’m trying to get better at accepting that it’s ok to have those ups and downs when all our lives are turned upside down right now!! šŸ™‚

So if you find yourself stuck in the same negative loop I get caught up in sometimes just try to dive deep into a good and positive hobby even if it’s for just a couple hours and see if that doesn’t help turn things around a little bit for you too!! šŸ™‚

I’m much more refreshed and recharged and ready for my show tonight so I hope to see you there too!! šŸ™‚

My amazing members are what help keep me going so the least I can do is try to return the love!! šŸ™‚

Cum join me here and let’s keep getting through these wild and crazy times together!! šŸ™‚

Weekly Videos Screencap Recap

This was another fun and busy week with LOTS of custom video orders, so check out the screencap recap below and join now or login to the video page to watch any or all of them:

Don’t forget…

And don’t forget the live weekly members’ show is tonight, Wednesday, April 29, 2020 at 8pm Eastern US time right HERE (if you can’t make it, all the replays from all past shows are there too)