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It shouldn’t have been hard to guess from the clues last week but here’s a preview video reveal of what was my first Halloween costume of this year!!

I’ll be wearing that one more time and piecing together my other costume for the year now so stay tuned for that…

Instead of just Captain Hook though I actually ended up being Captain Xanax that night, after a full meltdown while dressed like Captain Hook, mustache and all…

I had to literally be drugged with anti-anxiety medication just to go to the Halloween party. It ended up being amazing overall, more below, but my whole aura was angry, loaded with anxiety and fear and SO much shame for how I act and can’t control it.

I am so happy to be so unhappy as crazy as that sounds I’m just trying to be OK with not being OK sometimes.

As soon as we got back I scheduled an appointment with my doctor and we talked for a long time about my recent struggles and symptoms. He thinks the therapy and PTSD diagnosis is part of it but the more in my face medical issue making it all worse is a raging case of PMDD.

PMDD is basically PMS on steroids and then my case of PMDD is basically average PMDD on steroids!!

So one of the most common prescriptions for that is Prozac which I’ll be trying for now on the lowest dose to see if that can calm the beast long enough for me to continue healing through therapy and exercise and healthier food.

It takes a few weeks for it to really fully get in my system so I’m not quite sure yet how to feel about it or what side effects I might get.

Ok now back to the fun after I told the nitty gritty crazy city details of my mental health and meds.

I ended up being able to pull my head out of my angry ass and make it to the Halloween party and it was all AMAZING!!

The Hocus Pocus show, the parade and fireworks!! The show was everything I remember and more!! I was able to get some candy but with my allergies I can only eat some of the “normal” candy and had to head straight to the allergy center to load up!!

We got home at 2am… two o’clock in the morning… I normally am in bed around 10pm and up at 6ish. BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!!!!!!

Thennnnn… I got to go back to the dentist to have my FOUR cavities filled that I had been dreading ever since finding out about them a couple weeks ago.

It went as well as it could with someone who has severe anxiety about going to the dentist, but each cavity was in a different part of my mouth so it took SO many shots and I was SO sore for days after but better now.

The new webcam system is up and running and working perfectly too!! 🙂 I think this will be the first week that we try the password system with it now that all the kinks are worked out so we’ll see how that goes!! 🙂

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