I’m almost done updating my bio and it’s been fun but also super deep and heavy going back down memory lane of where I started and ALL the craziness, good and bad that’s happened over the last 10+ years!!
I had already started life coaching recently which opened up even more flood gates and now I’m interviewing different therapists to find the right fit to dive even deeper down my rabbit holes š
If you ever feel lost or alone PLEASE reach out to a professional in your area. I’ve always said it but now I’m actually living through it and it’s even more amazing (and terrifying) than I thought it would be to start to work on those parts of ourselves that we always try to ignore or bury down deep inside.
Sometimes I feel like I’m never enough and will never be enough, no matter how much I give and share, there’s always people that want more and try to push boundaries harder and harder.
The few bad apples take a toll over the years, one day and one abusive message at a time.
I have enough inner criticism and abuse in my own head, I don’t need extra outside help thank you š
That’s why I’m starting to rebrand the site and open up the higher tiers so that I can reconnect with the people that I truly want to be in my inner circle.
I know a lot of guys just want to come and watch my porn and that’s fine for them, but I’m here for the people that helped get me here, that see me as more than just a walking sex doll and connect with me as a human being that just happens to be sexual, not the other way around.
I have made a lot of progress and growth over the last year but now it’s time to take it to the next level and not do it by myself in my own mind but to have a professional help me unpack all this baggage too.
I already feel like I need to add another whole chapter to the bio with all this, but I’ll wait until early next year when I’ve had a few months to work through and process some of whatever I’m about to unlock through this therapeutic journey!! š
I hope that by sharing my struggles and breakthroughs along the way, it can help show that you’re not alone, that we all feel broken and that it’s ok to NOT be ok sometimes.
We’re all in this together, through the good the bad and the sexy š
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I hope that whatever struggles you are going through that everything works out for you and that you stay healthy happy and sexy. Take care of yourself. I hope that maybe someday soon I can join and get to know you more you seem like a very sweet young lady.
Is your updated bio on hard back print or publish via eBook
A note of thanks, and hope.
Lelu, I am not here for the sex, as good as you are at it. It is for you. And I want to tell you something about trauma: Thereās something called survivorās guilt. Because when you have been in shit, and made it out, itās natural to feel happy. And a little foolish for being in shit. That last is survivorās guilt. Itās knowing that you are here when you know that there was a good chance that you could not be. And, perhaps, when you see that other people were not so lucky.
Thereās a great thing about ignorance. You donāt know what you donāt know. And, if you are here, you know. If only because youāre here. An old guy, Thomas Aquinas, once wrote āI think therefore I am.ā Itās like that. All over. In every fucking thing you know.
But thatās religion, and this is a very strange place for religion. I know, though, that as a survivor, as someone who lived, itās my duty to be there. For those who donāt know. And, may I ask you, without shaming, as one who survived, can you do something with your gift? Again, I donāt know if thatās even the right question. Because often the best thing you can do is not give.
Anyway, itās 1AM where I am, I am 2 weeks into stopping my antidepressants, the last shit in my body. A little wired, but here.
Oh, I donāt know if youāve ever been on antidepressants. The first thing that comes back when you are off them is your sex driveā¦
Now Iām going to ask you a question, and itās something thatās a compliment. I watched a video of yours, the latest, and I watched one of your earliest from 2010. Is Bee getting, uh, longer? More talented? It certainly looks like he is.
Be well,
A fan.
I recovered from alcoholism 41 years ago. More importantly I learned how to rid my demons. If interested contact me.
You are so amazing to me !!! Iāll always be there for you!! Xoxo
Keep going forward in the struggle of life Lelu!!!! ML&R to you and yours!!!